Background

A little background. I am 37 years old. I am a graduate of the University of Wisconsin-Madison with a degree in Physical Therapy. I tell you that not to "impress" you but to let you know that I am an educated professional that "should know better". I started smoking in college, mostly when I went out to the bars. I ultimately smoked a pack a day for 10 years. I NEEDED a cigarette every two hours. It was crazy how it hit me like an alarm clock. It was the first thing I did in the morning and the last thing I did before going to sleep. Another common statement I hear from people is "YOU smoked???" I don't "look" like a smoker. Whatever that means. What are we supposed to look like?